this is going to be about people again, sensitive ones
'you are not happy, you pretend to smile but you are really not smiling'
i quote this from a friend and a very sensitive one.
maybe i should learn to be like him. if i appreciate his perception of me then maybe i could touch other's people's lives too
so how does one stop getting engulfed in one's own personal and career related problems?
especially if the career is taking much of the 24hr day... because one even go to sleep bugged by issues one does not have the energy to tackle anymore
i will yet have to find the answer that fits me, as 'getting things done' and '7 habbits' seems not to work for me these days
hmmm
Monday, June 28, 2010
to live or not to live... not again
the cut wrist image was back last friday. what triggered it is a scolding at work.
now that im writin about it, come to think, i havent gotten that for more than a decade now. hmmm
there are two types of people: one negative and one positive, or so i thought
but right now im just thankful that ive got new people around me that do stuff to make me smile. somehow after those moments pass, it becomes ingrained in your memory. happy thoughts they may be called. somehow reminiscing about happy thoughts makes you smile again. the phrase 'action speaks louder than words' becomes true as epitomed by these people.
hmm i wonder what these kind of people are called. i hope i will get a term for them soon
now that im writin about it, come to think, i havent gotten that for more than a decade now. hmmm
there are two types of people: one negative and one positive, or so i thought
but right now im just thankful that ive got new people around me that do stuff to make me smile. somehow after those moments pass, it becomes ingrained in your memory. happy thoughts they may be called. somehow reminiscing about happy thoughts makes you smile again. the phrase 'action speaks louder than words' becomes true as epitomed by these people.
hmm i wonder what these kind of people are called. i hope i will get a term for them soon
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
just a compilation of thoughts
you will only know that someone cares for you enough
when they will not want you gone,
like when they discover you are going to die
then they will appreciate you
real friends you will only discover
when you are in need
being in the negative perspective
really pulls you so so down and low
and lots of crying until your so so so tired
is sometimes the thing that pulls you out of it
(maybe this ive gotta realize or discover why.
and also may just apply to women?)
frustrations, disappointments, anxieties, fears
they make you forget blessings especially small gifts
or small acts of kindness
why is it so difficult to become a tree
when you are still a seedling
by the way, whoever said strive to be the best tree? and fast!?
did somebody? who ever started to lobby on this should have been exonerated
shouldnt every tree just allowed to gracefully grow?
Vanity of vanities! All is vanity.
... all is vanity and striving after the wind.
when they will not want you gone,
like when they discover you are going to die
then they will appreciate you
real friends you will only discover
when you are in need
being in the negative perspective
really pulls you so so down and low
and lots of crying until your so so so tired
is sometimes the thing that pulls you out of it
(maybe this ive gotta realize or discover why.
and also may just apply to women?)
frustrations, disappointments, anxieties, fears
they make you forget blessings especially small gifts
or small acts of kindness
why is it so difficult to become a tree
when you are still a seedling
by the way, whoever said strive to be the best tree? and fast!?
did somebody? who ever started to lobby on this should have been exonerated
shouldnt every tree just allowed to gracefully grow?
Vanity of vanities! All is vanity.
... all is vanity and striving after the wind.
Monday, June 7, 2010
to live or not to live
i have just been in a patch of life that didnt want to wake up in the mornings
as you have been probably wondering about the title, it was invoked by my musings on 'not to live' or on the other side of the coin, why still live? anyway!
my closest friend commented 'what! you had those scenarios?!'
hmm you probably didnt notice but the above thoughts are not in order, so just rearrange by 1-3-2 for you to actually know the sequence... haha!
well to be detailed about the scenarios, it had scenes on my mind of my wrists bleeding
gory?
anyway, back to my musings... so why didnt i want to wake up anymore? why did life felt like a wall crumbling or a vase shattering right in front of my eyes?
so i realized, because what i did was revolve my life around this future family members
maybe, while i start this next phase of life, i just take the advice of one new friend 'enjoy life in the present'
hmmm makes you wonder about gurus, life coaches, help self writers and you name it, who tells/ expounds/does steps by steps on and about to become a success you should have an end goal in mind
now i think this is probably BS!
(this accronym, i learned from my colleagues but for the purpose of blogging id rather not translate ;p)
BS! because everytime i include a male name in the goal lists, it just darn f l i e s away!!!
it was not just in my head! for it to be forgotten like to do lists on the mind! i wrote it in paper! i wrote in excel! as they instructed, to stamp it or claim it! yet it disappeared! it doesnt want to be in my life plan!!!
so back to why i dont want to believe in the previous statement on success,
well for one, dont you ever notice that somehow life unfolds by itself
and not by every step you meant and planned it to unfold???
so if thats the case, why not bum around and just enjoy the present???
there are already reasons i get to think of while this blog is unfolding
1. aiming for excellence for character growth
2. because nature dictates that for every action there is a consequence, you dont work you dont earn you dont have food and this because of 3
3. because nature stopped providing and we are cursed to toil this earth
4. the extreme notion of bum, is just lie there, do nothing (im being reminded of this tv program i saw featuring a fat lady that has to be sawed out of the house and couch because of a sedentary lifestyle, yuck!)
do nothing? that would be pretty pretty darn boring! huh? and i know i dont like boring. sleep, i like though (^_^) and staring into the horizon
5. what else???
i guess the answer to 'to live? - or - not to live?'
is the or
in a sense if you think about either and or, for example: either boring or exciting
life should be a balance of boring stuff and exciting stuff
balance? dont ask me how to do that!!! (^_^)
im still learning!!!
hihihi...
so, in conclusion, life unfolds with a balance of disappointments and getting there
and the final getting there............ is yet to be seen
as you have been probably wondering about the title, it was invoked by my musings on 'not to live' or on the other side of the coin, why still live? anyway!
my closest friend commented 'what! you had those scenarios?!'
hmm you probably didnt notice but the above thoughts are not in order, so just rearrange by 1-3-2 for you to actually know the sequence... haha!
well to be detailed about the scenarios, it had scenes on my mind of my wrists bleeding
gory?
anyway, back to my musings... so why didnt i want to wake up anymore? why did life felt like a wall crumbling or a vase shattering right in front of my eyes?
so i realized, because what i did was revolve my life around this future family members
maybe, while i start this next phase of life, i just take the advice of one new friend 'enjoy life in the present'
hmmm makes you wonder about gurus, life coaches, help self writers and you name it, who tells/ expounds/does steps by steps on and about to become a success you should have an end goal in mind
now i think this is probably BS!
(this accronym, i learned from my colleagues but for the purpose of blogging id rather not translate ;p)
BS! because everytime i include a male name in the goal lists, it just darn f l i e s away!!!
it was not just in my head! for it to be forgotten like to do lists on the mind! i wrote it in paper! i wrote in excel! as they instructed, to stamp it or claim it! yet it disappeared! it doesnt want to be in my life plan!!!
so back to why i dont want to believe in the previous statement on success,
well for one, dont you ever notice that somehow life unfolds by itself
and not by every step you meant and planned it to unfold???
so if thats the case, why not bum around and just enjoy the present???
there are already reasons i get to think of while this blog is unfolding
1. aiming for excellence for character growth
2. because nature dictates that for every action there is a consequence, you dont work you dont earn you dont have food and this because of 3
3. because nature stopped providing and we are cursed to toil this earth
4. the extreme notion of bum, is just lie there, do nothing (im being reminded of this tv program i saw featuring a fat lady that has to be sawed out of the house and couch because of a sedentary lifestyle, yuck!)
do nothing? that would be pretty pretty darn boring! huh? and i know i dont like boring. sleep, i like though (^_^) and staring into the horizon
5. what else???
i guess the answer to 'to live? - or - not to live?'
is the or
in a sense if you think about either and or, for example: either boring or exciting
life should be a balance of boring stuff and exciting stuff
balance? dont ask me how to do that!!! (^_^)
im still learning!!!
hihihi...
so, in conclusion, life unfolds with a balance of disappointments and getting there
and the final getting there............ is yet to be seen
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