dear diary

i got a new sales partner
i got a new boss

i just got rejected
i feel so little against a giant

im scared
its not just mix emotions but a jumble

i want to cry
i want to disappear

how to count the blessings
when im so negative

let me start
let me try

i have forgotten
Someone else has a plan for my life
there are friends around me
am i being a friend
maybe i have stopped reaching out
thats why noone misses me

why am i crying
why am i sentimental
blame it on the hormones?

nobody appreciates me?
or i have stopped appreciating
or maybe even dont appreciate myself

really how to get out of this rut