my pocket hurts!

emotional wallet! expected profits! risks!

i thought i can

but still i have to express myself
to overcome
that it does hurt!

now i understand myself
why its easier to buy something expensive
for me and me alone
because its like a reward
for all the hard work,
sleepless nights, to study, to ask resources,
to countercheck info
to document
all the effort,
travell tolls on my scoliotic back
lesser horizontal resting
and combatting my fatigue intolerance

than to lose money for investment
it can be gone!
the money i was like dying for to earn
why invest
when the payback is measly and/or sslllloooooowwwww
its not something i can hold and enjoy a s a p

sheldon cooper would readily tell me
if he were hearing me whine
--- b u c k u p ! ! !

hello! i am still in the small scale of
learning to make my money work for me
if i dont buck up
i wouldnt get to where i want to be

so, buck up queenai !!!