at rock bottom

there is light everywhere

but in my reality its just so dark

is this what hopelessness does

you feel the love, have faith

in an instant uncertainty steals that moment

faith crumbles into despair

despair just makes you want to lash out

you put your pain out there 

it comes back to you tenfold

its just so painful, a pain as if your heart has a wound 

and a boiling water is just searing through it once more

truth can’t even bring clarity

to a perpective thats so muddy

like you’ve sunk into quicksand

everything is over your head 

you can’t see, you can’t breathe

you’re stuck, you’re just being pulled down

i thought i was at ground zero

but I’m not, I’m below it

negativity on top of negativity

I’m sinking… sinking… and still sinking